Saturday, March 9, 2013
I have to let it all go -
for me, & all the lives I've touched...
Not a Sacrifice – Not Redemption,
I don't ever want to Love again.
I don't ever even want to feel again.
I give up.
Whatever control I thought I had,
was a Lie.
Whatever Goodness there was inside me,
is all but gone.
Take me to The End of This Horrible Life
- I can no longer wait.
Every Night I Pray
the Morning never comes.
Every moment I wake,
is another stake in my Heart.
There is No God.
There is No “Her”
There is only me.
Must I be Cursed to walk Forever
in the Shadow of my own Indiscretion
Must I be Mercyful
in the Face of my Pain?
Sunday, March 3, 2013
Today I imagined U in your wedding dress,
walking slowly down the aisle to save my Life.
“The Most Beautiful Girl I've Ever Seen”,
What was to be, never was.
Betrayed by Fate – We Belonged...
How could this never be?
Destroyed by The Promise of Our Own Destiny -
My Love Is Dead.
Saturday, March 2, 2013
I feel myself slipping away
(a little further each day)
They took a tiger out of the jungle
& put him in a zoo.
Everything that sustained my life (& distracted me)
has now been taken away forever.
Hopeless, Empty, & Unforgiven
Existing only to Exist
My God has not only forsaken me,
but has condemned me,
turned everything that was so pure & innocent
into something Evil & Shameful.
Sin Born From Love Burns Desire.
How can so much feeling ever be controlled,
let alone, be put an end to?
The One I Worshiped & Adored,
Loved & Secured
holds nothing but Hatred & Disdain
in a once Open & Selfless Heart.
How could something once so full of Light
grow so Dark?
Am I so incapable of understanding?
Am I really The Mad Man
I fought so hard not to become?
There is only but one truth that remains -
It is time to end.